wow, is right. Man I cant remember the last time I wrote in my "journal". lol  actually just felt like typing in general. I havent really "typed" in a while also, besides just updating my status on facebook. A bit rusty as far I as I can tell, lol I don't even remember where most of my keys are anymore. Besides my point lol.
Well, let me see.. Living with Robert been about five years now, Planing on getting married :) yay all smiles. We have actually been wanting to get married for a while, but never knew how expensive it was till now. So I think were just going to do the whole court thing and then just have like a big party or something. Only problem is Dont know wether to have it here in San Antonio or back in Crystal City.
Either way it's about time. lol. I love him, corny or not there are times I think about him and smile. yeah CORNY!! lol Still debating on wether or not to have kids or not, yeah almost nine years together and no kids. Maybe later. :]
Speaking of kids my brother n his wife had a baby. Jacob Jayden Rivera. ha a mexican baby with a whitte name and a mexican last name lol. love him though, even though he is evil. My lil brother had actually brain surgery about a year ago. They removed a tumor from his brain, about 27 staple from one side of the ear to the other. all went well, thank god.
Got out brand new truck stolen only after having it for less than 2 weeks. CRUSHING!!! They found it though. It was practically just the shell of the truck, cause everything else they took.  Why do bad things happend to good people?
Well so far thats all cya

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umm i dunno.... whatever...

Well here i am writing in this thing once again. Well i thought i would just update on everything i have been doing since i really never get a chance to do it. Well here it is, hmm well there really aint much to say. Lets see well first of all i dont remember if I told you but Jenn finally met Ted, "blind date" kinda. Ew Ted was ugly, but Gabriel's friend Billy was actually pretty cute. Well Jenn wanted to do something with him, but well really i dont know how that really went, cause well now she talking to Gabriel. Well what else has happend? Well i have been thinking of getting back with Robert, i think i should just go out with him again, I mean we are always together. Its like were going out anyways. David asked me out, I said yes to him, but david lives in Houston, and I was just playing around with him when i said yes. I dont know if he took me seriously though. Oh well right? Well Devon started being an ass again, he needs to get laid or something. Shain, well shain has something going on with this pshyco lunatic Viviana. yeah shes weird but i guess that is what he wants. so havent really seen much of him lately. Havent really talked to enrique either, maybe hes in jail or something. I dont know. Then again he said he was going to start working, speaking of work i might get a jon working at a casino. I need a jazob, i need money. so hopefully I do get one. Oh yeah one last thing, I made a goal for myself, lets see if i can keep it. I aint going to drink until my birthday. Lets see if that last. Well I guess that is all for now ill type in thing thing for later. Oh yeah I really like Antoine. I dont know why but I do. well bye bye for now.

Love Always,


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Well here I am posting in this thing once again. I really dont know what to write in this thing, well my computer crashed ince again, well it didnt really crash my fucked up siter must have deleted somethig cause windows wont start up. Antoine this online guy that yeah I got to admit I liked alot is being has been acting like a dick lately, he says there were test to see if I would stick by him. I guess i failed... plus hes in fucking Iraq, isnt that the biggest test ever? having to deal with the distance? yeah I think so, so fuck him and his test. Robert has been asking me out, I told him I would give him another chance just not now. I just dont want to go out with him yet.. maybe Ill say yes. SOMEDAY, tomorrow!! lol jk, well jenn is going to meet up with Ted, this guy I gave my number to when I was really drunk, I dont remember how the hell he looked. So yeah its likr a blind date kinda. hahaha. Will see how that goes, well ill write in this bitch later, and tell u how everything went.. PEAAAAAAAACE!

Love Always,

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Day 3 of our Trip.

Well the third day I woke up with the biggest hangover. I woke up at 6pm. After I woke up me and Jennifer went to the pool. We were there for about 1 hour and a half just talking about things. When we got out we went to go shower. After that I ordered Pizza for all of us. We went to sleep early that day because the kids had to go school in the morning and Cindy had to work, plus we were going to come back home already. Well we took off at 12. On the way out of Killeen Jennifer was kind of lost. But we made it out. Outside of Austin we stopped for gas, and Robert called. He said he might be staying at Eagle Pass so I go ok. We will just stay in San Antonio. So I called my mom to give me my brother’s number, so we could stay there. So we got to San Antonio. We chilled at my brothers Appt, and played with the kids. Then we went to the mall. Me and Jennifer took pictures. Jennifer met this guy named Darrell. They hit it off. They exchanged numbers. So we went back home. I asked if they had eaten and they said yes so me Jennifer and baby Ralph went to McDonalds. After that, we went to the store to buy baby Ralph a ice cream. I kept telling Jennifer to take care of her kid. Ha-ha it was funny. U Had to be there. So we ate then went to bed. David had called that night, he said he was starting to get to know this girl. So we broke up. I still havethe messages he left on the phone.. well that’s pretty much what happened that day. And that was pretty much our little trip, NOW I got to tell you about all the shit that has been happening, but ill do that tomorrow. Well bye bye for now.

Love Always,

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Day 2 of our trip

Well we woke up at around uh I would say 11, and only because stupid Enrique called me on my cell, Instead of just knocking on the door. What a dumb ass. Well as soon as we got up he started talking about Esme, and his little girl and how his mom was going to come to Dallas to come cuss him out because he didn’t want to take care of his little girl. So he goes let’s do to Killeen, so we said I guess.
So we took off, Jennifer wanted to take some of his DVD’s, and me being the stupid one said no, because I “liked him too much” fuck that. Well we took off. He got us on highway 35 and told us just to keep going on 35 and that should take us to 35. Jennifer already knew where she was going anyways. Well we got to this town called Alvarado. We had remembered coming through there so we got off at that exit. We got off at the wrong exit. So we called Enrique to ask what way to go. He said to stay on 35. At that time I kind of had the feeling that he wasn’t going to Killeen. But I didn’t think much of it.
So we got to Killeen and we stayed at Jennifer’s cousin’s house. I felt comfortable there. Well we got there and we went to the mall. Damn there are a lot of fine ass black guys over there. I bought some dick tongue rings. There pretty cool, but they bother me when I put them on. We left the mall and Jennifer wanted to show me where this club was at. So were driving around. Still, no call from Enrique. Jennifer gave up on showing me where the club was at. So we went back to the house.
We got there and Jennifer’s cousin asked what we wanted to do. We were hungry because we hadn’t eaten all day. So David took the kids and Jennifer, Cindy and me went out to eat. Cindy took us this restaurant called El Chico. It was GOOD. Yum! Then we went to go pick up Brandon, this guy that Cindy was seeing. He’s cute! Then we went to go buy beer, we bought a 20 pack for Cindy, Brandon, and Jennifer. And I bought 2 six packs of Smirnoff’s for me. We went back to the house and started drinking. We played BINGO. At first we thought Cindy was just kidding about the Bingo, but no we played it.
After a while we just sat in the living room and listened to some music. Then after a while Jennifer left Enrique a bad message on his phone because he didn’t show up in Killeen. Then I started crying for Robert, yes I said I loved him. Jennifer even said I said fuck me. I don’t remember that though. Then I went to the bathroom and I left Enrique a mess. I really don’t remember what I said though; I think it was I thought you said you loved me, what the hell is wrong with you making me drive 7 hours to come see you. Thank you for wasting all your money on us, thanks for the beer, you’re fucked up for not coming, I think it was something like that, I really don’t remember. Well I came back down and drank one more Smirnoff I drank 11 of those bitches. I was out. Way out. So I passed out on the couch. That was day 2 of our little trip. Keep reading if you still want to find out what happens.

Love always,

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Day 1 of our trip

Well I know it’s been a long ass time since I have written in thins thing... well let me kind of update you all with everything that has happened... Well about almost three weeks ago Jennifer and me went to Dallas. We went to go meet up with Enrique... the guy I like so much. Well he wound up being such an asshole... Well kind of. Well we took of Friday morning after we left the bank. We got there I would say around 4. I drove most of the way over there and Jennifer drove to Enrique’s Appt.
Well as soon as we got there, he goes what do u all want to do? We told him we needed to go to Wal-Mart to go get shampoo and stuff like that. So we got there. The stupid ass left us in the store and he went outside and sat in the car. Well anyways we left there… and we told him we were hungry we trying to figure out what the fuck we wanted to eat for like 15min… Finally we went to Sonic… We drove back to his house… Man we almost crashed… he drives fucking ugly as hell. Well we got to house safe and sound… The burgers we got from there were GOOD. Either that or we were just hungry. But damn… Well Enrique had to show his cousin some house or whatever so me and Jennifer stayed in the Appt. I was freaking tired so I slept, I don’t know if Jennifer slept or not but when I was awake she was watching Scary Movie. We wanted to watch How High but it was still in the wrapper. Well anyways Enrique finally got back and he asked what we wanted to do. We said we didn’t know. Well it’s Dallas and we really didn’t know what there is to do there.
So time passes and he says if we want to go to some bar that his friends were at. We said yes, so we all got dressed. We took off and he went to go buy some beer… he bought a 12 pack for Jennifer and him and he bought me a six pack of Smirnoff’s. Then he took us driving around Dallas. Dallas is beautiful at night. I always thought it was. Well we finally got to the bar and Jennifer had to go pee like always. So we stopped at this convenience store.
Well we got to the bar and at first they didn’t want to let us in, but Enrique’s friend just told us to get in. So me and Jennifer went to go sit down. As soon as we got there these guys started asking us to dance. So we dance most of the night. It was so fun in there. Enrique wound up paying about 60 dollars worth of beer, I think he was trying to get us drunk that’s why.
Well we finally left one of Enrique’s friends was with Jennifer Manuel and the other dude was walking behind me hugging me. We were going to Manuel’s Appt. so jennifer took off with him. Before I got into Enrique’s car that dude kissed me. Damn he was a good kisser. I really don’t know if Enrique saw me or not. Because I just remember Jennifer saying who your man? And I said Enrique.
So we went to Whataburger because Enrique was hungry. And of course Jennifer had to go pee again. But they were closed, and the guy was going to open the door but the manager said no. that guy was pretty cute also. Well we finally got to Manuel’s house. I have no idea how we got there but we made it. So Jennifer went in with Manuel and I was walking with Enrique, on the way over there he was talking to me about his kid. I really don’t know what he was saying because well I was drunk and when i am drunk I really don’t pay attention to what people are saying. So were there at Manuel’s house. I swear to god man I have never heard anyone’s cell phone ring more than Enrique’s. Well I was some what pissed for the fact that Enrique was on the phone the whole night. I would have kissed him or whatever but he never really gave me a chance. So oh well fuck that. Well Jennifer and Manuel were making out.
After a while we left. We went back to Enrique’s house. Jennifer started crying well we both did. We were drunk. We always cry when were drunk. I was talking to David most of the night. He made me feel better kind of. So Jennifer fell asleep and after a while I hung up with David and fell asleep also. And that was pretty much the first night of put little vacation. Pretty interesting huh, it gets better.Next post is day 2. Keep reading if you aren’t bored.

Love Always

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Just Do it!!!

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
21. If I was an ice cream flavour, which would I be and why?
22. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
23. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
24. Do you consider me a good friend?
25. What makes me, me?
26. Would you make a move on me?
27. Do I cross your mind at least 2 times a day?
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IM OUT!!!!

Well, all i got to say is that me and Jenn are out. The reason I am saying this is because now we are definitly out. Well it all started on Saturday, jenn, Heather, and me went to Virgo's brothers house to go drink over there because Robert had invited us over there. So we went, we were having a great time and what not. Talking I guess you can say. Well Jenn wanted some weed, yeah I know shes a loser.. Anyways Virgo didnt want to go get it because he was to "tired" to go. So I was like fuck it, when we go drop of heather, I guess I can take you. So went to go get it. After we got it we went to go get some zig zags. Jenn really had to go to the bathroom so I told her that she can go there... Well Korizza was being a bitch and said that there bathrooms werent working, which I kinda understand because the night before I had gone and they really werent working right, so we went to Robert. Who ever was outside must have gotten mad because I pulled up fast. Oh well. So we went to my sisters house because that was the only place we could smoke it at. So were there smoking and drinking.. We got drunk, I know I was drunk is because that is the only time that I actually dance. I was dancing a lot that night... SO then Jenn gets my cell to call her cousin... turns out to be that she called shain... why I dont know. Well anywyas.. we started crying.. now I know I got fucked up drinking and smoking cause that the only time we cry also... especially about robert and shain.. Well anyways, I told Jenn that I felt like if robert was using me.. u know for the car and money, not that I have a lot of it but anyways.. Yeah so it all came out.. So we talked to robert... he started crying because we told him we really didnt want to talk to him anymore.. So that is practically what happened.. Some how I thought I could make things work and the next day I went to go pick him up.. nope he was acting like a little bitch, so yeah since that day we havent spoke to him. BUT he says he misses us already.. this was only like a day after, what a bunch of bull shit. well class is about to start so I better get going, Ill write when I get home bye bye.

Love Always,

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Spring break almost here!!

 Hey ppl whats up? Well spring break is so close already. I can't wait. I want to go to Dallas. Me and my mom had this long ass conversation about it. She is trying everything to stop me from going. The Jenn goes if I wanted to go with her to New Orleans but really didnt pay much attention to that. I say she was drunk, probably didnt know what she was talking about. Oh well. Oh yeah I went to go take my writing portion of my driving test and I passed the signs part with a 95, and the rules part of the test I passed it with an 85. Now all I got to do is taken the writen portion of the test. I cant wait, I hope I pass. Good luck to me!! lol. Oh school, is going alright I guess, I got a C for midterm on my pshycology class. I think I have like a B in my English class, I hope im passing my math class though.. Oh I hope.. I hope.. I hope.. Zoology I think I am doing fine also. Well today is Jenns B-day I told her I would take her to Balaia. So I got to go shower. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN!!! Well thats all for now... bye bye.

Love Always,


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